Google can be a useful tool, however, it is no substitute for a professional.
Certainly there is something to be said about self-educating in the interest of self-advocacy, but too much irrelevant and/or inaccurate information can lead to undo anxiety and just a general sense of overwhelming despair.

This is why it is so important to seek and find a professional who takes the time, has the knowledge, and will interact openly and honestly with you.

Of course many of us have turned to Google due to frustrating and disappointing interactions with the professionals we wanted to trust, but don’t give up looking for that person - they are out there!

Keep saying what you need and finally the right person will hear you.